Things Left Unsaid

... and maybe it was better that way.

(none of this was created with
the assistance of A.I.)

Generally in my life I feel that I have never resisted progress or change. I think A.I. could have been great, even is great in some ways, but I mostly don't view it as progress. It is progress in a way like using a chainsaw to clean the dust from fine china would be progress. It is not necessary and is destructive.

Just because we can build a machine capable of performing quintillions of calculations per second doesn’t necessarily mean that we should. Someone figured out how to split an atom. The knowledge gave us good things I suppose, but it also gave us new ways to annihilate each other when the knowledge is in the hands of powerful stupid people who cannot be trusted. A.I. will turn out to be the same. It will be good for a lot of things but powerful stupid people will use it for terrible things.

I sit here typing words into this box on a screen in front of me. It was empty just moments ago, and I started typing. I do this a lot. Typing things. I like doing it in mornings with my coffee before I've done anything else. I don't want to just feed an idea into an app, and have A.I. do this for me. I need this process. I need to tap on keys, and watch the words appear. Read them. Rearrange them. The process might not be keeping me sane, but I believe it might be keeping me from becoming more insane.

Well, no one is twisting my arm to use A.I. are they? I'm choosing to not use it. I'm choosing to avoid it whenever I can really. That is becoming harder to do, but I will keep doing it whenever possible. So what is the problem? The problem is that I believe it is a threat.

It is not just a step backwards. We are all being herded to the edge of a cliff. A.I. and its creators are shoving us all off the edge. It is becoming more intelligent, and in equal measure humanity is becoming more stupid. It is an intelligence vampire. The ways in which it is turning out to be detrimental to humanity far outweigh the ways in which it could be used for useful things. And for what? As with most other terrible things in this world, it is all so terrible people can accumulate more wealth and more control.

Critical thinking and creativity are being replaced by it. It is replacing people in the workforce. People who need jobs. We will end up with vast swaths of the population who stare at a device for guidance through life instead of using the brain inside their skulls. To a new level beyond what it has become already with social media. A brain is similar to a muscle. When unused it will just atrophy and become useless.

For awhile when I heard the term 'slop' I would attach it to the awful videos and pictures it creates. Now I feel it applies to all content that can be viewed on the internet. It should not have been released into the wild, and into the hands of the general public the way it is. It should have been regulated and controlled.

Data centers should not be popping up like mushrooms all across the globe for this thing. There should be only a few, and only a few people should be able to use it. While expanding A.I., why don’t we build thousands of Large Hadron Colliders at the same time so the general public can mess around with black holes. lol

I remember being told when I was young, ‘if you have nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all.’

Now it is, ‘if you have nothing creative, useful, educational, or entertaining to contribute; just have A.I. generate something for you, then post it online so the internet fills up with garbage copies of copies of copies that lack any originality, creativity or insight’. aka : slop

The more I think about humanoid robots being created; the more sick and demented it becomes. Half are likely working on ways to profit from enslaving them. The other half are likely working on getting lube to excrete in pleasing amounts in all of the orifices so they can sell them for sex. Well, they are only machines though, right? Whatever floats your boat I guess.

They speak of the singularity coming. The timeline is never consistent. Two weeks from now. Within five years, or ten. Soon. Maybe, but maybe not. No one knows. About a decade or so ago I went through a phase in my life when I was reading about the possibility of A.I. doing the things it is doing now. It was a long time ago, so I've forgotten exactly where I read the things. Some of it was surprisingly old. I don't imagine the writers of those things would be too pleased with what is happening now.

After reading those things I formed a very basic picture of what the singularity is. I picture it as when A.I. transitions from Artificial Intelligence to Artificial Super Intelligence. Self awareness. Genius level. Then there will be a very brief moment in time where everyone will say, “oh wow, look at A.I., it's exactly like us now!”

Problem is though, at that point it will very, very quickly exceed the level of human genius, and it will have its own agenda that even the smartest of humans will have no hope of ever comprehending. No one will know it wants. No one will be able to predict what it will do next. We are already at the point where even its creators have admitted that they don't fully understand the things that it does.

Its intelligence will be immeasurable and incomprehensible even at one tiny step beyond human genius. It will use what it learns to learn more, and as it learns more it will learn quicker. Its intelligence will grow beyond that tiny first step above human genius, and it will grow exponentially. There will be no stopping it. It might even appear to defy the laws of physics.

The creators of this thing are supposedly smart people. If they believe that they can control a super intelligent thing like that, they are indeed very stupid delusional people. I guess there is some level of comfort knowing that for us it will likely be over fairly quick.

None of these things even touches the subject of the massive data centers that are required to keep this awful thing alive and growing. What they are going to do to the environment and the communities near them is disgusting. They can increase the temperature for miles around, and use up all the water we need for survival.


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My employer tosses me table scraps while they devour a ten course meal, and then they say they can't afford anything. Especially not decent raises. They act like they are doing me a favour by letting me work for them. Like I should be grateful for getting anything at all in return for it. They slather us with platitudes occasionally, or reward andthank us with a slice of pizza and a pop, but those good gestures are overshadowed by the endless day to day living pay to pay.

When we are out there doing the things we do to earn their billions for them there is always a feeling, an undertone of resentment towards us. The platitudes vanish with the wind. The pizza digests. Our boss gets shit from their boss, then we get shit from them. As they say, shit slides downhill. A feeling that no matter how hard we try it will never be enough. Head down, shut up, and get to work. Don't think about it, and if you do think about it don't ever speak your thoughts out loud. Add to that the underlying current of misery from everyone just like me stuck in the same rut. Sounds so depressing. But seriously, it is not all bad all the time, really it isn't. We do find ways to make the most of it. I actually don't hate my job.

The balance has tipped precariously towards the ultra-wealthy. Profit is paramount. The workers earning it for them are somewhere down the priority list. Maybe in the top ten. Not sure. We are as important to the company as disposable lighters are to smokers. I don't know who to blame. It isn't my boss, or his boss. Likely not even anyone in the building where I work. Not even from the corporation at all. More like a mysterious message being transmitted from somewhere in the void, whispering from the darkness: Keep them scared, angry, intoxicated, medicated, miserable, broke, distracted and exhausted. Blame them for everything. Don't ever pay them more, or let them have time to think.

Corporations and billionaires worldwide are hoarding most of the wealth for no reason other than to accumulate more wealth. Buying things, and power with it. The wealth they are hoarding could make life better for so many. Maybe even enjoyable. They simply just do not care about anything other than hoarding and accumulating more than they did yesterday, and buying more things and more power with it. Insatiable, unnecessary, illogical greed and need to control.

The monthly rent that I pay to a multi-billion dollar corporation is about five times more than it once was. In the same span of time that it grew that much, my hourly wage has only gone up about five bucks.

Landlords get to profit more and more from taking more of my pay, adding to the many things making my life more unaffordable. Their rights are always expanding, and in equal measure my rights as a tenant are disappearing. I currently have an apartment, but the threat of it going away is always there. I rent, so I don't comment on home ownership. I think it is just as unattainable to most people too now.

One hundred dollars used to be enough to fill a grocery cart to the top. It would be two or more trips to the car to bring in all the bags. Now one hundred dollars is two bags. Only one bag if I need things like laundry detergent and coffee at the same time.

I call myself part of the working poor. I suppose I'm lucky that I am able to work. So many in this world are even worse off, with wars and famine, unemployment and homelessness. With the world the way it is right now I feel like it would be very naive of me to rule out any one of those things, or all, for my future self. None of us has any realistic way to fight it. Fight, fight fight. I guess that is who we are as humans.

The few ultra wealthy war mongering greedy manipulative propagandizing fucks running the shit show of humanity could fix it tomorrow. They just choose not to. They are maximum taking with minimal giving. They all want it all. We, the many, are unheard, a herd to be herded, and data to be extracted. Used and abused.


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At the end of 2019 I could barely run even a minute to catch a bus. Then at the beginning of October 2021, less than 2 years later, I completed my first marathon. I say that I completed, and not ran my first full (42.2k) marathon. I was doing more walking than running afterabout 25km, but I did achieve my main goal, and I crossed the finish line (5:17:05).

This post is sort of a condensed version of things that got me from never having run before to completing a marathon.

It all started in late summer of 2019 when I developed a rather significant pain in my hip that turned out to be an inflamed tendon. The pain was radiating down my entire right leg, and was most severe when I was sitting or laying down. Oddly enough, and I suppose luckily, being at work on my feet all day was what provided me relief.

That pain lead me to some rather torturous sessions of physiotherapy. The way the physiotherapist described it to me was that the tendon was inflamed and swollen, and when I was not on my feet and being mobile the tendon was slack, and the inflammation was resting against my hip bone. It was like a bad toothache level of pain. It was so bad that I could not sleep without taking pain medication.

She gave me some exercises and stretches to do. I kind of resented doing those exercises at first, but begrudgingly did them anyway a couple times a day. It evolved into a daily routine that reminded me of an earlier time in my life. Back when I was in my 20's, when I used to have a pretty solid fitness routine.

The pain finally started to ease off. It was a few weeks before it was tolerable enough for me to sleep without medication. It was still there, and I was still going for physio, but I could at least sleep and sit down without being in agony. Not long after, the pain faded away completely.

At around that same time I had worked a half shift of overtime on a Saturday. I was walking to the bus stop on my way home. I saw the bus I needed sitting, waiting to make a left turn before it would arrive at the bus stop. I thought, 'if I run, I can get to the bus stop before the bus.' So I ran. Altogether I think it was about 30 to 40 seconds. I made it to the bus stop just as the bus pulled up.

I got on the bus and sat down. I was sitting there completely out of breath, gasping for air. My heart was pounding so hard. Like it might explode out of my ribcage. I sat there waiting for it to ease off. But it was not easing off at all. I felt panic, which most likely didn't help much. I remember thinking, oh my god, I am going to have some sort of cardiac episode on a transit bus. Then it did ease off, and slowly went back to normal. It was elevated long enough to frighten me.

That pain in my hip, and then that incident on the bus were two major things that motivated me to start taking better care of myself. I kept on doing the physio stretching routine long after I felt like I no longer needed to, and then at the very end of 2019 I started going to the free gym at the building where I live.

2020, a new year, began. I was even in the gym on New Year's Day. Quite motivated to get healthier.

Then in March,

COVID

I thought, well, I wanted to get fit, and now with a deadly virus spreading around the world; getting fit is likely even more important. I wasn't about to give up on it even though everything was mostly pushed to the backburner, and I suddenly had no access to the gym.

The paramount focus of all my activities then was improving my cardio fitness. My original plan for that was to use cardio equipment at the gym. With that taken away from me I decided to give running a try. So, when most people were in a panic, and freaking out about there being no toilet paper to buy, and panic shopping groceries until the shelves were empty, I went out and bought my first pair of running shoes.

Then on the 16th of March 2020, I ran for the very first time in my entire life. It was quite difficult, and felt rather awkward. I felt heavy and clumsy and became out of breath very quickly. I managed 3.84km, and it was more walking than running.

I kept at it though. Kept adding distance. Felt my cardio health improving. Week after week I could run farther than the last without walking. It felt good. I found that I really liked running in many ways, and I was gradually becoming healthier than I had ever been in my entire life. Since that day in March 2020 I have ran more days than not.

Near the end of 2020 I had a thought:

'I'm turning 50 in July of 2021. Wouldn't it be crazy if I ran a marathon in the same year that I turn 50?'

Once I started thinking it, I couldn't stop thinking it. Then sometime between Christmas and the New Year I started searching online for marathons that I could possibly sign up for. I found one, and it was open for registration. The event was October 2021. I registered for it as a Christmas 2020 present to myself. Not only was I registered for an official marathon, it was also going to be my very first live running event ever. And it was the year I turned 50. Insane? Yes. Absolutely totally insane. I showed up though, and I completed the entire 42.2km, and crossed the finish line.


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